What r u talking about? I don't get distracted easily!! HEY LOOK!! A SQUIRREL!!!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 10:55:56 GMT

Well i had a hella crazy weekend yo. friday night was dancing and such, me and max went out to dinner on glenferrie after, and it was all good. Saturday was volleyball in the morning (not that great but we still won) and spending the rest of the fucking day getting to MELTON.

*blinks in fury*

well yes, after an epic of the bourke st. trams not running, and four people at the station telling us to get tickets different places, we got onto the train and we're spanishing it up. well max was and i was getting the jist (very proud). So i just replied with "spanish spanish spanish" and looking very pleased with myself. So yes, we met at the station with Cat, Clara, and Doug, and eventually got to Luke's outrageously placed house in the middle of nowhere :)

Dinner party, and about 7 new friends later, we were sitting in the living room making generic witty repartee with one or two people playing acoustic around the circle, drinking champenge straight from the bottle and such. Good times. Must see them again soon. Big Luke!

So today was Ska in the Park with Max and JackJack (Jack Angwin) and that was pretty fun. We saw Scooter, and Paris since he was playing, but Bella and Lana didnt show much to my dismay. then more outrageos training since the park was far. near Heidelburg Heights for anyone who knows it. milkshake at baskin's, and now im at home, putting music and some of my photos on a gig stick so i can sneak out and i can show them to maxy tonight. woot. im going to be tired tomorrow.

My deal on the Sam sitch: He's a bastard sometimes, but all you guys knew that before, so it's kind of like playing hot potato with an un-pinned grenade. you just can't complain about getting burned since you knew it would happen sometime. *shrug* (HA. sam's an un-pinned grenade) so, yeah, im sure he'll probably come around, but this intensity is not called for peoples.

(im going to get in trouble for that) AH WELL. Night all, see you soon.

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 11:48:44 GMT

disregard the last update, i only said that because i had to as much as it pained me.
the end peeps.

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 11:47:54 GMT

I lost the game.

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 09:48:09 GMT

Thailand. Hanging out in Phuket, been hanging here for a week, and going to bangkok tomorrow. temples and shopping. woo.

there you go, you're caught up, i need to see you all before school. perhaps a party of sorts is in order.

anyone want anything from bangkok?

the end.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 10:52:39 GMT

Stop your messing around. better think of you future. time to straighten right out. ... Rudy, a message to you rudy! a message to you!

i found out i like ska. and stuff.
oh god im getting too hyper, get to say what i have to say then get out before i scare people. *deep breath*

um, people we should do stuff.
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Thu, 24 Nov 2005 04:05:11 GMT

In keeping with my exam tradition, im going to put my exam results out here first. in the order i got em... Key: EDCBA+

First Day:

French: C - 61% (ah well i saw that coming. at least she said i was good enough to continue even though im not. :D)
Science: (aka, the icing on the metaphorical cake) Biology: A - 85%, Psychology: A+ - 98% (yay, top of my class, *does dance*)
RE: B+
Maths: Paper 1: B+ - 78%, Paper 2: B+ - 76%
English: Speech - B, Macbeth Essay - A (yay for dramatic studying!!)

Today:

Business: She gave me a C but i got it marked up to a C+ - 66% Although she didn't give me the 6/6 from the 1/6 because she wrote the freaking question bad.
U.S. History: Document Analysis: A - 26.5/30, Civil Rights Essay: A

Not too terribly, and that psych mark helped me get into the Psych 3/4 that i wanted. Although i had to give up my lunch running from Mr. Rickards [<3 (though not the Katie way *wink*)], Mr. Young, and Mrs. Tachas' offices. so yeah.

YAY YEAR TEN IS OOOOOOVAH. *wipes sweat from brow* whew. that was fun stuff. can't wait til next year, full of VCEing (to my dismay, i wish i was in IB) corsetting (yay gunna buy one soon) and formaling (w/ corset :D)

the end. now off to many many hours of dance. tata.

religiony

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 06:46:04 GMT

You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

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agnosticism

63%

Paganism

63%

Satanism

58%

Buddhism

58%

atheism

46%

Hinduism

42%

Islam

33%

Judaism

29%

Christianity

21%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Sun, 30 Oct 2005 08:16:01 GMT

ok, so far 3 people have yelled at me to update. i havent because ive been lazy and.... "busy". BUT i was touched when rose said that i used to be the most updatey person. SKOR!

HALLOWEEN!!! i'm excited even though i have like no costume. mum went back to america a while ago because of the whole death thing. :( but she brought us back all this US candy and some of it was halloween stuff. CANDY CORN! and others. but its all like pure sugar and i love it. :)

speaking of halloween, i went to the halloween devmeet yesterday and it was fun but not as fun as the scavmeet will be. probably because at the scavmeet there will be more people and scavenger hunting! cant wait cant wait cant wait. max won the best male costume award thingy because he was a red army officer :D it was so much fun going into the city on those packed trains with all the dressed up horse race people with him dressed as a communist. tray s'ilarieuse. (bad fren-glais)

been dancing more and it's sweet and me and max know some crazy stuff although he's still kinda worse than me because of his whole ninja/taekwondo thing but i want to go dancing somehwre in the city sometime soon at like a club or something cuz thatd be really fun and thisisareallybigrunonsentence!!!! you get my point though. we should do it. like really. and not at one of those crappy underage bar things with the crappy music. like an actual place with good music. maybe latin. id like that. someplace with a band. :)

and today has been study/revising while sitting in my comfy chair in the corner of my room and watching my packed computer defrag itself. (25%!) mums really getting quite stressed about all the revising and work. but then again, isnt she always.

i think im being a little bit strange right now so i hope you guys have fun reading my crap and get off my case until next month at least! :D nah just kidding ill TRY to update more often sorry guys, you know i love you.

(indie is <3)

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 11:19:53 GMT

You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering.

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Albus Dumbledore

85%

Draco Malfoy

80%

Harry Potter

75%

Severus Snape

70%

Remus Lupin

70%

Ginny Weasley

70%

Ron Weasley

65%

Hermione Granger

65%

Sirius Black

55%

Lord Voldemort

45%

Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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Mon, 17 Oct 2005 08:01:13 GMT

10 Firsts -
First Best Friend: Nic Crawford til year 4 when he ditched me for a guy. *glare*
First Screen Name: swimbug4@aol.com still have it in fact. its my US name :)
First Piercing: Ears.
First Crush: Alex Ruhle
First Music: what the? how can i have first music? well it would have been me dads anyway
First Car: dad's teal jeep. i claimed it as my own.
First love: life? but as a person, it obviously would've been mum, opposite sex and not related: dont think ive had one.
First concert: *shrug* dont remember
First DVD you bought: dont remember

9 Lasts:
Last Cigarette: never
Last alchoholic beverage: Vodka
Last Car Ride: yesterday to lunch at decrausaz's
Last Movie: Labyrinth!
Last Phone Call: Max
Last CD Played: Lion King Musical Soundtrack
Last bubble bath: after camp
Last time you cried: last week, wednesday

8 Have You Evers:
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: nope
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yep
Have You Ever Been on TV: yep
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted It: Nope, surprisingly, never
Have You Ever had a Suggestive Dream About Someone You Knew: yep
Have you ever had sex: i'll leave you to ponder
Have you ever cheated: is it called cheating if he's there as well?

7 Things You're Wearing:
1. school shoes
2. ankle socks (sport)
3. 3/4 length bike pants
4. underwear/bra
5. hairtie/necklace
6. Sport Shirt
7. Contacts

6 Things You've Done Today:
1. Hugged a soaking wet year 12 for no apparent reason. i like hugs.
2. went to volleyball
3. had a good conversation with lyd and em
4. listened to SOAD
5. almost didnt go to biznas
6. kicked a footy back to a small asian carey kid in my park.

5 Things You Ate Today:
1. tortilla
2. apple
3. sultanas
4. bizkit
5. tiny twix bar that was in my freezer... O_o

4 People You Can Tell [ALMOST] Anything to:
1. Maxy
2. This guy in New york that i've never met but talk to online anyway
3. and that goes the same for any people ive never met/dont plan on seeing again
4. ...

3 Choices:
1. Black or White: Black
2. Hot or Cold: Hot
3. Sun or Rain: Sun

2 Things You Want to Do Before you die:
1. Compete in something to a high level
2. Learn/Travel a helluva lot

1 Thing you regret:
um. locking the door when i came back in the house because i just remembered clark has to come back in.

woo i totally win these things. : |

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 11:37:28 GMT

well dance is fun, and chris is so freaking slow its hilarious.
i just got my english set finished, and i really hope we dont have to have a speech with it. cuz that would suck. a lot. i am going to die. i hope liz has my back.

anyway. school tomorrow. good luck everyone. im sure we'll all need it.
my excessive use of periods is annoying. clarks practicing horn 24/7 is also annoying.

welp, ill see you tomorrow to my dismay.

...

kbye

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 13:09:29 GMT

Everyone: I hate you.

been feeling spiteful for a week, but im getting better
homework. damn it.
mums being a betch wont let me go out
I have a new favourite band of the moment
Muse

and song of the day for the last few days have been:
Mon: The Guns of Brixton - THE CLASH
Tues: Can't Stand Losing You - THE POLICE
Wednesday: Butterflies and Hurricanes - MUSE

and im now reading Kushiel's Dart which is a pretty sweet book.

The end.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:52:26 GMT

just a quick one today, a recap if you will
doing french at the moment
doing this latin american dancing thing with max, did the first one yesterday and we have one tonight
ROSE AND MANDI we need to get together before school cuz i have no clue what to do with that business thing. i might call you guys soon.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 13:00:06 GMT

i always seem to miss so much. *sigh* ah well, if i dont see you guys in the holidays ill see you at school

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 01:08:01 GMT

Hey, back from Cairns/Port Douglas. twas alrite, killed my skin so now its all tan liney and uneven, but who cares. no ones going to be seeing in Melbourne for a long time. I THOUGHT THIS WAS SPOSED TO BE SPRING!!!

annnnyway. yesterday hung out with max, he managed to get hit in the head twice and made me determined to learn hacky because ive never tried and suck so badly. that might take a while and a LOT of practice. haha, oh yeah when me and him went back to my house after walking around a bit, we walked in the door and the first thing i was Clark on the couch with his head covered in an blanket, with his penguin pajamas and fuzzy slippers on. it was the funniest thing ever. (this was at about... 5 o clock) i suppose he gets off because we got back really late the night before (damn airports always delaying and crap, we got back at 2) but still, come on.

So today mum has alloted as a "study day". *rolls eyes* so that means minimal work and no going out. gr. my homework is really strange this holiday. its mostly like creative or researching (YES, i dont have to write an essay)

Set Design for English, which is building a model stage for act one of Macbeth
Brain Functions Poster, drawing a brain and labelling (woo easy!)
RE Ethics thingamabob (meh research, shouldnt be TOO hard)
French Verb Sheet and Diary, verb sheet is doneish (anyone know what its sposed to be done as? eg je, tu, il/elle? or all of em or something? im confused) and the diary i havent started but probably should eventually
Business ASX Report. oh shit. Rose, Mandi, im gunna need to talk to you guys sometime during the holidays because i have NO clue what happened or what im supposed to do... *tugs collar*

thats about it. im looking forward to a whole lot of seeing people. which i will do. even if i have to drag people from their houses, (and i will) so you guys may as well come cooperatively. :D and there will be fun.

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 08:31:18 GMT

Port Douglas on a cheap internet thingo
sweet.
got a bit burntish, it's already turning into a tan, but now i have to work on fixing the DAMN TAN LINES!
ok yeah, beaches are fantastic, the rainforests are tres cool and ive been taking a bunch of pictures
and i cant wait to get back. really. its crazy but as cool as this is id rather be spending time with my friends. see if everyone was up here... well thatd be different *evil grin*
in other news: me and max's 6 month is today. whoopdedoo, we survived most of the painful reactions and accusations. well im proud at least.
oh and for anyone who cares, the main part of Port Douglas is BIGGER than my hometown. now THATS depressing.
im about to go watch the cane toad race in some pub soon so ill see you all sometime soon, yeah?

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 06:25:33 GMT

A - Age you got your first kiss: i dont know when they start actually counting
B - Band listening to right now: The Shins - Fighting in a Sack
C - Crush: Max
D - Dad's name: David
E - Easiest person to talk to: sounds gay, but mum.
F - Favorite bands at the moment: Sex Pistols, Stroke 9, Shins, Shihad. (s's)
G - Grade: 10
H - Hometown: Royal Oak, Ortonville, Melbourne (don't know which one is my hometown)
I - Instruments: Oboe (haha.) piano
J - Junior High: Brandon Intermediate School
K - Kids: are small
L - Longest car ride ever: 15 hours probably
M - Mom's name: Karen
N - Nicknames: Em, Emmers, Frenchy
O - One wish: mine.
P - Phobia[s]: change, rejection
Q - Quote: "Find the man nobody's protecting. A man without friends. And beat him until his eyes bleed."
R - Rules you've broken: enough that i wont write em.
S - Last song you heard: Hotel California - Eagles
T - Time you woke up: 10:30
U - Unknown fact about me: when i was younger, i wanted to be a mineralologist. weird, huh.
V - Vegetable you hate: Radishes
W - Worst habit(s): apologising ALL the time
X - X-rays you've had: wrist, fingers a couple times, head, torso, ankle, toes
Y - Yummy food: Nando's
Z - Zodiac sign: Saggitarius

cant wait to see everyone, ive been missing you guys a lot. i'll see you all at school.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 04:33:00 GMT

short one:

Welcome home campers, hope you had fun
cyrano's over
Afterparty was good fun
How's your hangover sam?
yay its the weekend.
aw. school on monday.

done and done. *dusts hands*

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 10:46:44 GMT

AHHH ITUNES IS THE POCKETSIZE MUSICAL ENTERTAINMENT PROGRAM FROM HELL!!!
that being said, i didn't get to do the TEENS part of enrichment week, and i have to go shortly to scrub foundation out of my pores from the dress rehersal. woo.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 04:02:02 GMT

well i went to house and then went home again. knives feel like their stabbing my gut and i just got up after having a 3 hour nap and not noticing.
yes. its a little like that.
damn now im going to have to suffer the inquisition and wrath of mr. may, evil bastard he is.
sorry i couldn't see you all, but you know... the knives and such.
well im off to eat soup and stare blankly out the window.
hope you all are well!

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 01:34:39 GMT

ah edgoose is a fool. meh at least i got an A+ on my essay. he took one mark off me, but me and liz think its probably because he doesnt want to be shown up. HEH. goosey.
aw. its so sad when lydia isnt here... :'( she'd better come soon, i had to sit on my lonesome because liz was doing HER essay for most of the time. gr.
and i dont have headphones... that seems unrelated, but whenever im on the computer im listening to music, so it feels weird and empty when im not. quite the sad.
i will see you today. hahah this is so cool, because you will read this eventually but not until after school when i will have laughed at you already. HA! :D
have fun pets.

I fail LJ

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 06:47:37 GMT

Sorry ive dissapeared off the face of LJ for a while

heres my DA journal, which i updated. sorry to cut you guys out but... eh. http://silentvoyces.deviantart.com/journal/6126678/

god, those comments were really bitchy! mattnoah is asha's brother and fiendishmax is max for anyone who wants to know. they were having an all out war in my journal. ive noticed that asha and her brother are very alike. must be the whole 'related' thing.

well anyway, that journal sumarises last week pretty well after the politics thing, so i wont go into that.

AH careys doing 42nd street!!! and i actually know a decent amount of tap now! thats crazy! im happy though. i like tap, and am fairly good at it, at least thats what my dance class says. DAMN YOU SAM! now i know what the pain of the tap is! YOU CANT STOP ONCE YOU KNOW IT! ah well. i can only hope that the singing aud. has an at least semi-alto part this year. that would be nice.

and... what else. AHH (yes another 'ah') Shihad's coming to Melbourne again, AND THEY CHANGED IT FROM AN ALL AGES TO A 18+!!! now adelaide is the all ages one. GODDAMN THEM. so my three choices for that are: 1. get a fake id, 2. go to adelaide, and 3. dont go. that would make me very sad indeed if i couldnt go to the concert. :(

well yes, my life is being pretty occupied at the moment with school, cyrano, and ... more school, so im again sorry ive abandoned you guys.

ta! :)

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 09:33:27 GMT

my other english folio piece, its a bit morbid, be warned.

Statement of Intention –
I decided to write a short story based on a tragedy that happened to my friend recently and I feel is very important to me. I wrote this from John’s POV, in hopes to put the reader in his shoes, and to make his confusion very real and easy to identify with. Since I wrote a light-hearted satire aimed at teenagers for my last folio piece, I decided to write on a slightly darker topic. This is aimed at the older teenagers because it’s written on a person their age, and people who understand exactly what it means when someone has spinal injuries. I purposely left this story without closure or a happy ending, a little risky maybe, but it was because I feel that this story should make the audience think, rather than the idealistic ending than they would expect from a story that is so far from real life.

Breakdown
Based on the true story of John Katona (17), my close friend.

Numb. That odd numbness, almost like a dream. A plastic hat danced dizzily above Johns head as the sirens and lights made his head throb.
“Try not to move, everything’s going to be alright,” said a voice from above him.
“As if I could! I wish they’d just tell me what’s going on,” thought John. Paramedics were running this way and that in an organised panic around the wreck that John had been pried out of with the Jaws of Life. He felt detached from the scene around him, numb to all sensation as they lashed him to the stretcher and pushed him into the bright light of the ambulance.
The trip to Beaumont Hospital was a blur to John as he drifted in and out of consciousness. The two medics in the car were busy taking blood pressure and doing other tests which made even less sense to him at the time. The cabin of the ambulance faded out as he saw the medic insert a clear fluid into his arm via a needle which he didn’t even feel.

***

“John… John?” an iron-haired doctor leaned over John’s hospital bed, an openly worried look on his face.
But all John could manage in return was a harsh breath and a slow blink of heavy eyelids which didn’t seem to want to function for him.
“John, I know you’re awake now. I don’t want you to be frightened if you find you cant move your legs, its perfectly natural for this to happen after something as traumatic as your car crash,” although his face clearly showed that he was lying through his teeth.
“Car crash…?" Images suddenly flashed through John’s already aching head like so many lightning bolts. Screeching brakes… Blinding headlights… The sheer terror and horrible anticipation as the world seemed to slow for that one awful moment… And then he snapped back to reality. Back to his hospital bed and the doctor who was still rambling about who knows what, too much medical mumbo-jumbo for him to understand. He caught snippets of the rapid speech, and from what he could piece together, it didn’t sound too good. Spinal injury, trauma, C4, paralysis, shock… it was all too much. The scene slid from in front of his eyes and was once more replaced by thankful oblivion, that pleasant darkness that he was starting to prefer.

***

A moment later, it seemed, he had once again woken. This time it was by a frustrating itch on the tip of his nose. Just an annoying little thing. He raised his hand to scratch it…but then he noticed that his hand hadn’t moved. It just sat there like rubber on his bed sheets, not responding. A panicky feeling ran through him, but he quelled it at once. “Isn’t this what the doctor said was normal? Trauma, right?” He cleared his throat, "at least that’s working” he thought to himself, and called out for anyone near to help. A kind looking nurse immediately walked through the door as if expecting him, slowly sat on the edge of his bed, and told him the thing that would change his life.
“John, a week ago you were in a terrible car crash. We weren’t sure if you were going to make it, because you had terrible head and spinal cord injuries. You have been on heavy medication since you arrived and we managed to set your bones, but the crash has severed your spinal nerves. You are paralysed from the shoulders down.”

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 02:54:39 GMT

Harry Potter has been out for a whole 3 hours and 51 minutes. im just updating now because i know everyone else is to preoccupied reading. HA!

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 12:03:34 GMT

whew. just wrote a modern punk culture satire. enjoy!

The Guide to Joining the Punk Clique*

1. Firstly, The Look. If you want to be a true punk, you have to look punk, and that means you must have all of these daily essentials to be accepted into your punk community.

·        Eye Liner - boy or girl, it doesn't matter, eye liner is your new best friend. Apply excess amount of eyeliner, make sure it stands out. If you're a guy, drawing lines from your eyes towards your cheeks are also nice. It gives the crying and depressing look. You're on your way to becoming a punk.

·        Black nail polish 24/7 - Apparently, if you don’t have black nails, you don’t have the right to be called ‘punk,’ for it is all about how you dress and present yourself, not about how you think. So load up on black nail polish.

·        Dyed hair - preferably styled in a ridiculous manner. Don’t worry if you think it looks stupid, having a weird hairstyle will distinguish you from the other wannabe punks. Nothing symbolizes anti-establishment like a Mohawk that’s rainbow coloured.

·        Band Shirts - Buy some punk band t-shirts, you don't actually have to know who the bands are, but if they look cool, then they're good enough for you.

·        Mutilate your clothing – Cut it up, then put pins in it to sew it back together, and splat it with paint. Of course there is great ruined clothing on the market nowadays, so now you can have trashed clothes with much less effort. True punks MUST show how angry they are with the world through having mutilated clothing.

·        Spiky wristbands/collars/belt - well really anything spiky is good. You can’t go wrong with spikes. Every punk wears these, so in order to be original and fit in with the masses of punk wannabes, wear studded chokers and wristbands that symbolize your suffering.

·        Fishnets - Girls, you MUST have fishnets for all occasions.

·        Shoes - Preferably checked high-tops, but skater shoes will do in a pinch.

2. Next, The Lifestyle. If you want to be punk, there are certain aspects of punk life you must learn and perfect.

·        Learn Guitar - If you don’t play your favourite music on your own electric guitar, and also play your own angst-filled songs on your acoustic, you’re not punk. Period.

·        Start listening to punk bands - Become Good Charlotte's #1 Fan. Why? Because they are the epitome of what’s punk. Funky pop beats, and emotional lyrics that have a distinctly rebellious and political feel. What real punk doesn’t love that?

·        Flaunt that you’re punk - cover your walls completely with posters, especially Good Charlotte, also put up some of The Rolling Stones, Jimi Hendrix, The Sex Pistols, etc. It doesn't matter that you don't actually listen to them; they are legends, so you look like you know your music. You also have to ridicule other genres loudly and often, do this in a public place for the best effect. The more people are around, the better.

·        Write angsty poetry/song lyrics - It doesn’t have to make sense, it just has to express the angst that ONLY YOU, among billions of teenagers, feel. This depressed teenager vibe goes nicely with your new wardrobe and musical taste.

·        Politics – This is a very big part of your life since most punk lyrics are on You have to have a very opinionated view on politics and be well versed in the recent scandals and outrages. The most important thing for you to believe if you want to be punk though is that George W Bush and all government is out to ruin your life.

3. These together come to be The Behaviour. This is the last binding factor to becoming punk. It isn’t enough just to look punk, you also have to get into the punk mindset. Good luck, and keep rocking.

* Warning: none of this piece is intended to be taken seriously

there ya go, busy day, but im tired so im going to sleep now.